Learn to be alone.

And be okay with it.

When I moved back home from Montana, a lot had changed. Actually, things were the same.  Home was the same, my friends were all the same, the drama was the same.  But I had changed, a lot.  I grew up, I didn’t want to deal with the pointless drama anymore, and I cut a lot of people out of my life.  Maybe I just grew into myself, you know, the person I had the potential to be in high school but hadn’t yet gained the backbone for.  Either way, that meant that I was alone a large majority of my time, because when you live in a small town and you stop talking to all your friends from high school, you don’t have many options to go with.

I had to learn to be alone.  Don’t get me wrong, I had still had some friends, and eventually my boyfriend.  But a lot of them live far away from me, and I had to live with text messages and phone calls as my source of contact with the people I cared the most for.  So obviously that would be kind of hard to deal with, being on my own all the time in a society that pretty much pitches that the only way to be fulfilled is to have a crap ton of people around you all the time.

But I was determined to find a way around being lonely.  Because lonely and alone are two different things, and even though everyone gets lonely from time to time, I wasn’t about to let it define me.  So I took up knitting, and joined a pharmacy program, and got a bunch of movies to watch and good books to read.  I learned to keep myself busy, be productive, culture myself, and entertain myself.  That doesn’t mean that there aren’t nights where I wish I could be out with my best friend having fun or on a date with my boyfriend.  But it means that I do not have to constantly be around people to be happy.  Maybe that makes me an introvert, I’m not sure.  But I do know that it means that I am okay with myself, no matter the circumstances.

I took a situation  in my life that could have seriously sucked, and used it to better myself.

And I feel like that’s a big part of growing up.


About PaigeWrites

26, Cat mom, California girl, aspiring Teacher, Wife, Christian.
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One Response to Learn to be alone.

  1. thefroglyprince says:

    I had to learn to be alone in a big way after college. I was trying to get a job and pay all my bills off savings so I went without internet and a cell phone for about 6 months. It was rough to say the least.

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